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Turning of the tides
- a lost soul in the darkness of your thoughtsIt’s soon midnight and like always this lonely soul is still up, sitting in front of his computer and doing what he does best, existing. The weather has been depressing all day but thanks to the state of mind I’m in for the moment I really don’t care. I think the political correct way for a former teenager like my self to describe it is “life sucks” however that’s just too drastic for me so I’ll go with “people complicate their life too much”.
I don’t like to complicate things, it just makes life so much harder and what’s the point of that? Isn’t life hard enough already without us adding to it? I’m sure it’s in our nature to overanalyze things, especially good things. I guess it is easier to make a good thing bad then it is to make a bad thing good.
I have a story for you, a true story even. It’s about a good thing turning bad because of overanalyzing and how that affected two friends and made everything complicated. The chapter isn’t finished yet so I can’t tell you how it ends, but hopefully I will be able to soon.
Five days ago (Friday the 27th of June) I found myself in a situation that opened two new paths for me, paths that could change the outcome of a nearly finished chapter of my life.
How did I choose, you might ask yourself and the answer is quite simple. Happy endings are more fun then sad, right? So I took the road that I thought led to just that.I had the opportunity to take my friendship with this girl to the next level without crossing the boundary. Even though everything went smooth and we both had a good time something happened.
A wrong turn, I think I made a wrong turn somewhere down this road because it didn’t lead to a happy ending, it led to something else. However I didn’t realize this before a couple of days later when I found out that my friend didn’t want to speak to me anymore.
I don’t know why she is like this, what I have done or what I can do to fix it. I can only speculate but I don’t really have much right now.
So what is the outcome of all this? Well, I have lost a special relationship with a very special friend. The whole ordeal has made a lot of things more complicated and therefore made my life much harder. Do I deserve this? Maybe but as long as I’m kept in the dark I will never be sure.
Well, I think the sandman is knocking on my door so I better get some rest.
Until next time! Be even!